Friday, November 9, 2012

Worst Blogger EVER Award

I haven't won but I'm definitely nominating myself.

I'm not going to lie.  Pregnancy is an amazing and terrifying thing.  I'm beyond grateful to be experiencing it and sometimes I feel like I'm in a dream.  A dream that is about to become VERY real in the next 6 weeks or less.  I'm about to me a mom of two little miracles.  Never thought I'd get the chance to say that.  But the dark side creeps in and reminds me that it's not over yet.  There's still so much that can go wrong.  This is something I've been fighting my entire pregnancy off and on.  How could someone that's faced infertility have a seamless, healthy pregnancy?  I just didn't think the odds were in my favor.  Turns out I'm damn good at carrying babies...ha!  Who'd have thought?
I apologize for shutting everyone out...especially you guys that have been through hell and back with me.  I've been unfair and selfish and I'm sorry.

Thank you to those of you that "checked in" and made sure I was still alive.  I am...alive and well and almost 32 weeks pregnant with twins.  Me.  Still in shock.



17 comments:

  1. I can't believe you are already 32 weeks. I hope the remaining weeks go smoothly until you welcome the babies :)

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  2. It's hard to blog when pregnant after IF. Totally know what you mean- plus gestating twinsies gives you the TIREDS, right? So so glad things have gone well so far! FX the last few weeks run just as smoothly and that your babies are home in your arms soon!

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  3. I'm with JM - blogging about pregnancy after IF is hard and carrying twins wipes you the hell out! but - so glad to hear from you and know that you and the twins are doing well! I totally understand about 'waiting for the other shoe to drop'. I've had that feeling the entire time. You're 32 weeks though! That's so awesome! Can't wait to see pics of your little ones when they arrive!

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  4. I'm glad to hear that everything is going well still!

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  5. I'm glad to hear everything is still looking perfect!! Can not wait to see these little sweet faces!!!!

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  6. So glad to "hear" from you again! Glad things are going well!

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  7. I'll admit, I was a bit worried. So glad to hear things are going well! You are going to love holding those babies!

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  8. Glad to see everything is okay. I hope your husband is doing well. Great job carrying those babies. I hope everything continues to go well and that you have healthy babies. I'll be thinking of you these next few weeks.

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  9. congrats on 32 weeks!! you are almost there!! i felt the same way when i was pregnant especially towards the end. hang in there!

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  10. I just started reading your blog yesterday and have read through your entire archive, following your journey. I am addicted to reading blogs and just started my own. I appreciate your list of success story blogs as reading them helps me stay hopefull. I am so happy for you and wish you the best of luck these last few weeks of pregancy.

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  11. Hi Lou-
    I just randomly came across your blog about an hour ago while googling the side effects of Lupron and Gonal-F. I'm an egg donor, and going through the donor process with an IVF mother, and due to lack of understand on the part of my friends and family...haven't really had anyone to talk to about the process. I'm not sure you could possibly imagine how incredible, eye opening, and rewarding the past hour has been for me. I was immediately drawn in by your optimism and your wit. I found myself starting from the beginning and reading every one of your posts. I've never actually followed a blog, and found your detail about the injections very helpful...and then I found myself crying with you when writing about your husband, and feeling anxious for you before each checkup.
    Please understand that we are strangers, and so very much sisters. Please know that your husband and your little peanuts will be in my prayers tonight, and from now on. I really hope so desperately that things are going well with his recovery from surgery and radiation.

    I could go on, but I just needed you to know that you've made a difference in a 24 year old girl in California tonight. You've reminded me of why I'm doing this. Because amazing, strong, and bold women like you deserve to be mothers.
    Your family is in my heart.
    Bry

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  12. I followed you over here from Amber. Congratulations on your twins! Fingers crossed for you that every things goes well in your last weeks. You are so inspiring!

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  13. Congrats on the twins and the success you've had with infertility. I hope that they make it here and all goes well for your "little miracle babies". I work for a fertility clinic Los Angeles so I know a little of what you've gone through because I see it everyday. Congratulations.

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  14. I'm DYING for an update :) I hope everything is going well!

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  15. I'm DYING for an update :) I hope everything is going well!

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  17. Hope all is well in your world!

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